About the time when teacher Chen Yingzhen was arrested in my freshman year, when a person was arrested, the newspaper reported that everyone didn’t know that he had disappeared. Then all kinds of people said that they felt very scared. I was chatting with him in the Star Cafe a week before the teacher was arrested. At that time, I had already participated in poetry. I thought that writing is a very beautiful and dreamy pursuit. When I said my thoughts, the teacher was patient on weekdays, but he was anxious and impatient. He said to me that writing should not be so private, and more people should be worried about the edge of life to attack injustice.
At that time, I felt a little disgusted after listening to his words, thinking how the teacher was so arbitrary and so determined. For a dreamy young man full of literary beauty, Chen Yingzhen’s teacher theory made me feel very hurt.
A week later, he was arrested. I heard some stories that he founded an organization, and that he translated Marx’s theory, saying that people in his organization were arrested one after another. I remembered his words in the Star Cafe.
It was already seven years later when I saw Mr. Chen Yingzhen again. He came from Green Island and I came back from France. We both experienced some things. I heard everyone talking about politics at lunch, dinner and tea in Paris. Six years later, the French were passionate about politics, and they might recite Nie Luda’s poems together at any time. I suddenly found that revolution is a kind of passion, more passionate than family love and more passionate than human feelings.
For me, the revolution has become a poem in the streets of Paris. Nie Luda’s poems are not poems, but songs echoing in the streets.
In the film Postman shown a few years ago, you can see that even the postman is influenced by Nie Luda’s poems, because it is not a poem, but a revolutionary language, which will bring you a great spiritual shock and make you feel that you can give up all the warmth, sweetness and happiness and walk into a world that will fall apart.
Revolution is a rite of youth.
When I was studying in France, I found that the revolution was a very attractive thing, but I couldn’t tell it. My fear was different when I was a child. I also followed my close French friends to tie headscarves and marched with the parade. In May, I was probably in a state of strike. People who have been to Paris will know that the weather in May is so good that you don’t want to come after class. I found that every revolution is held in May, or it is in autumn. I rarely choose a good weather in October. It is probably more interesting to choose a good weather for the revolution. You will also ask me which dress I want to wear today.
The afterlife movement is not as terrible as I thought, but a carnival, including reading Nie Luda’s poems and choosing a demonstration dress. The revolution can be re-annotated. Maybe it is because you are young and transformed into a youth ceremony.
I suddenly understood a western saying that you were not a communist party member when you were twenty-five years old, and your generation would not want you to be a communist party member after twenty-five, and there would be no hope for your generation. He said that communist party is a revolution and a dream. When you are twenty-five, it won’t be too outrageous to live a passionate dream, because it is a utopian sustenance, but after twenty-five, you should still believe in distant dreams, and there is probably no hope in life.
From this sentence, we can also see revolution, poetry and beauty, and it eventually leads to a great sense of loneliness, because loneliness will make people believe in utopia
Upia Utopia is a transliteration of a foreign word, but it also means in Chinese characters that the virtual world is entrusted to the state. It is a reality, but you believe in your heart that it is in the country, and you believe that in this country, people without class can give up all their selfish desires to achieve greater love. Only young people will believe in Utopia and the passion for finding Utopia is amazing.
When I haven’t seen Mr. Chen Yingzhen for many years, his impression of me is still stuck in his debate about the meaning of poetry, and he is flushed, telling him that writing poetry is an absolute personal aestheticism. I can’t accept that you should be more pregnant. He doesn’t know everything I have experienced in France in seven years, and I rarely tell people that I have revealed a little in my novel Anna’s hair.
Tolstoy Kropotkin
Anarchi Anarhis is a political organization that I joined in France, which is also translated as governmentalism. This school originated very early in Russia in the 19th century. Its founder is bakunin MikhailAleksandrvihBakunin Krupotkin PeerKrpkin. These two people are Russian aristocrats. Many founders of revolutionary movements are aristocrats, and their process is similar. First, they are dissatisfied with life, then they feel lonely in the decadent aristocratic life. Finally, they choose Tolstoy as an example.
Tolstoy was an earl who owned a big farm, but in his resurrection, he revisited the growing process of being a nobleman and sinking into land serfs, which brought him anxiety and decided to go. I think Tolstoy is the greatest.
It is not resurrection or war, but writing a letter to the Russian tsar when he is old. In the letter, he did not call the tsar emperor but called him a dear brother. He wrote
I decided to give up my title, I decided to give up my land, and I decided to restore land serfs to their personal status.
After posting the letter that night, he took some clothes and left with a simple foreskin. Finally, he died in an unknown small train. Others knew that an old man fell on the platform, but they didn’t know that he was Tolstoy, the great writer.
I think this is Tolstoy’s greatest thing. He shows us that the revolution is a revolution against ourselves. He wants to subvert not the external body or class, but the moral insecurity.
Looking back, what is Anarchism? How can it be a state of government?
In Taiwan Province, we can easily find Kropotkin, whose translation is Ba Jin, the pen name of his hometown in China. The origin of this pen name is to take the first word and the last word of the names of bakunin Kropotkin. When he stayed in France, his idol was Anna Qi, the two founders. He took this name and Ba Jin translated many Kropotkin foreskins in his life, including bread crust and a rebellious saying.
Krupotkin was expelled from Switzerland by the Russian government for announcing the revolution and could not return to the motherland. However, he has been expounding his thoughts of government in various languages. When I read Krupotkin, I must admit that I was more shocked than I read.
He actually regards writing as a kind of secular life, but I am writing in the form of confession. Until now, I have occasionally translated it, and he is still moved.
He wrote in the bread crust that he believed that one day bread crust would no longer be monopolized by a few people.
Now we think it is not difficult, but for the poor serfs in Russia at that time, bread crust sharing was a luxury. However, the greater luxury was Kropotkin’s second proposition. He hoped that the beauty of poetry and music could also be shared by Russians. After you read Gorky’s writing that his mother was doing heavy work and had to endure her husband’s punching and kicking in leather boots, you would know that Russia would be divided into classes, poor women’s status was low, and animals could not even meet people’s livelihood needs. How could it be possible to share the beauty of poetry and music? It was a dream.
Yes, it is the dream revolution that has created a utopia. Most of them are secular countries. Realizing their dreams will always be laughed at by secular people, so he is lonely.
When Kropotkin died in Switzerland in his later years, he completed a rebellious speech. He called himself a rebel. He rebelled against his rebel class, his country, his religion, his family and his family. He rebelled against all the established rules of the world and tried to return to a single person to do all the rebellion. Every time I read a rebellious speech, Kropotkin’s last thought will make my eyes very clear about the revolutionary loneliness.
Volume III Revolutionary Loneliness
Win politics but lose poetic beauty.
I think many people will accept my definition of revolution as a failure in the real world to some extent.
Liu Bang and Xiang Yu, two characters with different personalities in the historical records, will find that there is really nothing to read about Liu Bang’s story. But is Liu Bang really so lacking? Otherwise, Sima Qian is not interested in him because he succeeded in writing a history. Sima Qian actually doesn’t like success in this world. What’s more, it’s an objective right or wrong problem, but a subjective poet’s choice. He chose Xiang Yu as an American idol. Today, we will watch farewell to my concubine in Wujiang, no matter whether it’s a film or a drama, and it will be moved. Its root is a poem.
We are not sure whether the historical overlord is really so romantic, but Sima Qian succeeded in creating a beautiful ending of the revolution, and people will miss this role for thousands of years.
Is this the responsibility of the article? Is it to write a lonely, desolate and successful person who won the government? That person is afraid because he also lost the government but lost the poetic beauty.
From this perspective, we find that Sima Qian put Xiang Yu in the story of emperors, and in the last Taishi Gongyue, he hinted that Shun’s eyes were covered with heavy pupils, and Xiang Yu was also heavy pupils, comparing Shun, the great ancient monarch of Xiang Yu, with the best.
Or Sima Qian’s farewell to Xiang Yu’s life is a beautiful description, saying that he is eager to pull out the mountain and be angry with the world.
I think Liu Bang may regret reading historical records in Jiuquan, but he won the country but lost the history. How can future generations read historical records? Liu Bang will be impressed by Xiang Yu’s role full of revolutionary loneliness
From the perspective of strict history, I will doubt Xiang Yu’s straightforward character, but Xiang Yu’s heroism represents Sima Qian’s heart’s tribute to loneliness. You can see that the moving scenes in historical records are all related to loneliness.